2020

 

—-2020 Rewind—-

I started this blog to find consistency in my write ups but it’s been a while now and this year is finally over… and I want to remember  it.

If I count my 2020 achievements, this blog, setting it up and getting it running, was one of my biggest achievements. And it seems fitting that I write one post acknowledging this year as a journey before wrapping it all up and dumping it in the past. 

I don’t actually have a poem,story or review to write about today but I do have thoughts. They are jumbled and all over the place but I found something common in all of them and fair warning-

It’s a cliched and kind of a universal topic, so excuse me if this is kind of an over baked sort of content. 

LOVE 

told ya it’s cliche 

So what exactly is love?

I have always wondered and found a million and one poems on it.

I have ‘suggested posts’ on instagram showing me the meaning of love.

I have seen people posting about other people who sum up as the definition of love for them.

I see this and that, basically random things, become somebody’s love while for some it’s nothing you can touch nor see.

I have seen people yearning and not finding love anywhere.

And I also found people naming love over rated.

So what exactly is love….

Which category do I fall in ? 

I wouldn’t be so sure but I did find a lot of love this year.

It’s strange but despite all the mess this year gave, I honestly found it full of love.

That is after putting a lot of thought into it obviously! 

Which is why I think, end of the years are beautiful. 

After all its 365 days of growth, be it in career, relationship, life or time spent with oneself.

At the end of the year it all comes full circle and you can finally see things clearly. 

So in my 2020,

I see a lot of love.

Love that came in meeting online friends offline,

It came in trying out new food, new clothes, new conversations and new routines.

Love that came in acceptance,

It came in letting emotions out and letting emotions in. It came in waves, sometimes strong, sometimes feeble, sometimes non-existent.

Love that came in words-  caring, angry, frustrated and desperate.

It came in thoughtlessness, hurting but also loving in equal measure, breaking barriers and creating boundaries.

Love that came in silences. 

Deafening at times, but were necessary emptinesses. 

Heartbreaking at times, but broken with reason to remould itself.

Love that came in updating versions of myself,

Fixing bugs, resetting and restarting aspects of me.

Love that came in making mistakes,

Mistakes with regrets, and I believe those are the good ones. Cause those help in finding love in mending bruises. 

Love that came in forgiving, 

Again and again because if you don’t give chances how do you make things work?

Love came and love went… 

But what stays is all you need to count.

And love stayed,

Or so I believe.

I believe.

I believe.

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I don’t know about you but 2021 sparks no interest in me despite the positive vibes taking it’s rounds in people's minds and feeds. But hey, I don’t  say this in a negative way. 

I believe it will be something I guess, but it won’t be anything you expect it to be and to be honest, don’t you find that beautiful? Let’s go in with zero expectations and see what happens.

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So, my dear readers, I hope this year will be full of small surprises and unexpected happinesses for you.

All fingers and toes crossed!!